true bestfriend doesnt exist at all?
Friday, June 25, 2010 at10:09 AM
Felt like blogging now so yeahs, if you're sad and no mood please do not read this post. Because this post is going to be a super moody post. Eventhough i start ntg yet but i felt something pressing towards my heart. I wanna blog about true bestfriend. does it even exist ? ? i don't know actually. I used to have more than one bestfriend? more than a bestfriend ? something like that , but everytime i tried to count how many bestfriend i have. i just realised 3.. but slowly become 2 and then 1 .. last but not least 0. isnt it sad ? because i think a true bestfriend is someone who is there for you no matter what , kept contacting with you no matter what, any event or what shit she's going to be there for you, accompanying you, asking if you're okay or not, the one who wont backstabbed yu at all ? the one doesnt hide anything and tell everything ? where can i find this kind of bestfriend ? are they with me actually but i dont realised or what ? or i jusst think too much ? i can't reli consider this particular girl who is my bestfriend for 4yrs is still my bestfriend this year because she seems like ignoring me or what? she don't call me anymore like we used to in high school, those jokes those tease we use to tease and joke with each other seems like fading away, i dont know !. typing all this shit makes me cry again ! whats wrong with me ? A truebest friend really exist or not ? i have alot closed friend, but i need someone who is much more closer to me other than my parents. the one who i can share everything with. my siblings wouldnt care bout me .. and i dont share secrets or anything to them as well. I am jealous of those who having siblings that are really close to them like , sharing secrets, teasing each other in a good way but not those like will make you cry, and etc etc. i shall stop here.
