Friday, June 11, 2010 at11:04 AM

I suddenly feel like blogging, but not blog about what i did this few days but blog bout somehow part of my life lar. First of all, i is going to give up loving someone i guess? i dont know why but yeah it hurts me whenever i thought of it :) note : while i am typing all this post i am crying right now. 
facing the comp for so many hours make me think alot.. i think its impossible for me and him being together. Six sense tell me. I know is stupid that i dont even ask him yet then i can like 100% confirmed he wont likes nor loves me or whatever shit it is. but e six sense feelings is so strong that tell me IMPOSSIBLE. i wont hate him for  sure. 
not just because of this guy made me give up but also my friend. I know this girl for 4yrs. bestfriend for 4yrs as well.. but once we both move to different school everything change. ps : NOT I AM E ONE WHO CHANGING BUT HER. i dont know if she will read this or not but this hurt me alot. We use to have same dreams.. she told/promised me when i was in form5 .. she told me she will go to Maktab Duli as well but no.. she went to Meragang instead. The worst part is somehow she's ignoring or what?  or maybe i think too much but yeahs. She prefer going out with her new friends instead of us ? She seems like throwing the old friends away. e last time i met her is dec . wait is march but that was in school.. taking our own result slip ! dont count that in. so yeahs e last time is december.. december until now i asked her if we could hang out together or what for so many times but she everytime.. EVERYTIME EVERYTIME give me alot alot reasons. i am pissed, OFCOURSE I AM ! even my birthday she didnt manage to come. bestfriend for 4yrs is what ? WHAT ! ok like that nvm, because there's a reason which is ABIT reasonable. so now is holiday i didnt ask if we want to come out or what because i noe sure alot reason.. e last time i called her, i asked her to adjust some time so we could hang out together. till now.. NO ANS NO ANS NO ANS NO ANS. i am so effing pissed right now. 
this two things here seriously can made me go crazy ! not just crazy but speechless, lifeless, emo, anti-social and etc etc those negative one lar. i dont know why am i crying so hard right now but yeahs i have to post this.. 
NAH ! ANTI-SOCIAL LAR NOW .. 
sign off
Melinda 
2.03am 
I KNOW ITS MIDNIGHT AND I STIL BLOGGING.